Today I finally get these tissue expanders removed....yay! Even though I've kinda got "used" to them, I can always still "feel" them. Not painful, but can be uncomfortable. You just always "feel" a hard foreign object inside of you! I've had these things in me since July 26, so I'm so ready for this exchange!!! They are hard and un-natural looking....one is considerably larger and higher than the other (it even wants to poke up above some tops I wear...lol...so I have to be careful what I wear!). Dr. Jackson has assured me that he will fix that and make them match and tells me I'll be pleased....and I trust him! :=)
Today I get them replaced with my permanent, soft, silicone implants...yay! I must admit...I can't wait to see what they will look like (and I'm not a vain person, but this is such a change to my body). The reconstruction has been such a long journey......barely over 4 months.....but I don't regret it and am so happy to finally be looking at the "prize" today! :=) I came really close to NOT doing this! I could have had my masectomy back in July and healed and been done....except for follow-up check-ups with my surgeon and oncologist. And I would have been fine with that. And I'll admit that there were times I wondered..."oh why, oh why did I do this!"...lol! But, that was in the earlier days. It isn't particularly easy, but it does get better.
And now, once again, I'm going under general anethesia and the knife. I tell them they can do anything they want...as long as they put me to sleep. lol! I do not expect this surgery to be anything like the last one. I expect to be sore, of course, but I do not expect to be "down" like I was with the masectomy. I expect the healing time to be much shorter. I have my two cancer sisters (hi Carin and Amy!), who have gone through this ahead of me, telling me that it will be instant relief! I can't wait! So, I can honestly say that this is one surgery I'm looking forward to!
It is outpatient surgery, so once I get awake and am ready to come home, I'll be set free! I've come a long way baby!!!! I'll be a new woman...lol!
Until next time....prayers are accepted and appreciated! Thanks!